To my singular comrade

Yes, I mentioned you in the title.
You are not a friend of mine,but more than that. Because I am opening my heart to speak. Only you can see it.read it.understand it. So you are my comrade.

I want to sleep,but I don't want.
I want to see you,but I don't want.
I want to talk with you,but I don't want.
I want to go for a walk with you,but I don't want.
Lets go somewhere quite and scream aloud,but I don't want to.
But I want them all when I dont want to want them.